Well, what is possessing me to write about this? I am always working on self-improvement and being happy. For so many years I was not true to myself and there was an empty spot in my heart that needed to be filled. My art was missing for so many years. Not only my art in terms of painting and drawing, but I stopped knitting, sewing, emboidering, creating, dreaming. Life was survival, being strong, and just getting through each day, feeling drained and there just was no more to me. I found myself as I was unemployed for that year, so thankfully, as I was able to relax, I became free to figure out what I really enjoyed and wanted to do, as I pondered what do I do with my life next.
Because of the stress of life leading up to my unemployment, and the grieving process of losing my job and also my beloved brother, I put on so much weight from not eating or exercising properly. I decided in December, "enough is enough, I can not carry this burdon anymore!" and I went back to Weight Watchers. I am successfully losing my weight, I feel better, and yesterday I changed my "messy style" haircut to a short and sassy style. I noticed a couple of weeks ago and shared at my WW meeting that when I look in the mirror, I am recognizing myself now. The extra weight did something to my face! My whole image is returning back to who I was and I am thrilled!
One thing that happened to me a couple of weeks ago is I went someplace to have my glasses repaired. The man came back and said to me, are you......and he said my whole name including my maiden name from childhood. He was someone I went to school with from Kindergarten to High School and he recognized me from his memory, he told me I look the same! I was so happy! All I want to be is my true self, not what someone else thinks I should be. I want to be happy, healthy and make my dreams come true, no matter how old they are, no matter how long they were stored away in a corner. Is that asking too much?
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